Thursday, January 16, 2025

Poetry Friday: Overthinking my 2025 Word of the Year

Photo by Markus Spiske

When it's time to choose a guiding/inspiring/motivational/comforting/perfect (aye, there's the rub) word to take me through the upcoming year, I do what I do with everything: Overthink it and paralyze myself.  (Do you think that little "perfect" requirement has anything to do with that? Naaaaah.) 

For 2024, I chose "Hope" but also stre-e-e-etched Hope out, seeking maximum mileage: 

Healing
Overcome
Patience
Emerge 

Hope, healing, overcoming, patience, emerging: it was good advice to myself. I needed all that and more in and from 2024. 2023 and 2024 were rough. After a couple years of intense caregiving and the deaths of both of my parents six months apart, I felt like an abandoned shell of myself. Time to reclaim ... something? I headed down that Hope road and it's been helping. (True, I have often felt derailed, especially since November 6th, but that's another subject and another post, a different kind of rough time to come.) 

For my 2025 word, I did an online quiz to see if I was inspired by the word it gave me. I took the quiz three times and every time it gave me Create. I was tempted to fight it, as I often do with that kind of thing. I'm a Gretchen Rubin Questioner/tipping-to-Rebel and I thought: 

"Why should I trust a random online quiz? Shouldn't I find my own word? Wouldn't that be more authentic? Am I lazy to use a quiz? But some quizzes are great, like the Four Tendencies. After all, 'Questioner' nails it. But this is different. Or is it?" 

And then I thought: 

"Shut up and just adopt the word, Karen. Create feels just right after the healing, the overcoming, the patience, and the emergence. JUST USE THE WORD." 

So I will. But I wasn't done (over)thinking it. 

I stre-e-e-etched the potential of Create a little further, and here's what I came up with: 

Conceive
Realize
Envision
Actualize
Truthfulness
Express

I like what it invites me to and I have all kinds of ideas about all kinds of writing I want to create going forward. 

Overthinking, apparently, isn't all bad. 🤔 I even decided it was worth writing an acrostic poem in its honor: 

On January first, I 
Veer into it, the inevitable
Everlasting, maddening 
Routine of it.
Turning to words for direction, to guide me
Hoping one little word can transform twelve months
Into a new creation. 
Nothing, though, not even an all-encompassing word, can 
Know what's to come. Still, I try. 

It's in our bones, in our blood, we can't help it. We
Try. One little word that can transform a year. 

~~~~~~~~~~

Tricia at The Miss Rumphius Effect is hosting the Poetry Friday round-up this week. 


26 comments:

Anonymous said...

Karen, Thanks for this. I can relate to all you said. I have been thinking about a word or two for the year to post above my desk. I like how you stretched it out. This will be a good activity for this weekend. Thank you!

Anonymous said...

Last comment by Cathy Stenquist, Karen. Oops!

Linda B said...

Your 'overthinking' feels just right to me, Karen. It's THE word for you to live with all the year, so why not look for satisfaction? As for your acrostic, love the final lines, a sinking into "We try"!

Karen Edmisten said...

Hi, Cathy! Enjoy your word/mind/overthinking stretch! :D

Karen Edmisten said...

Thanks so much, Linda. All we can do is try, right? :)

elli said...

Thank you for sharing your Creativity, with us Karen (heh, see what I did there. Sorry) Seriously, tho', it is a good word for times of building new pathways, learning who we are becoming, after such enormous life changes … I've long enjoyed having a word and saint of the year — I still utilize Jen Fulwiler's online generator! This year: Behold! Which I quite like: so much of my life is now spent being ever so still, gazing out on the world — in the yarden, in books. Look! See what the Lord has made! … wishing you a year filled with rich new growth 💞

tanita✿davis said...

Lord have mercy, "Overthinking" has become an entire vibe for me. I love that you're leaning into it, though. Happy New Year, friend!

Tabatha said...

Creation feels like a very hopeful thing to do. xo

Denise Krebs said...

Ah, Karen, your acrostics are magical. Create is a great word for 2025. Here's to a powerful reemergence for you. And a creative response from all of us to our new government.

mbhmaine said...

I loved coming along on your journey into your OLW selection. I can definitely relate to the overthinking thing, although yours seems to lead to ...creativity!...and mine seems to tend more toward paralysis. I can also relate to last year's word and its genesis. Caregiving and grief are life-changing partners. Wishing you a wonderful year with "create."

Karen Edmisten said...

elli, "Behold" is a lovely word to take with you into the new year. Who is your saint of the year?

Karen Edmisten said...

Tanita, sad to say that "overthinking" has been my vibe for far too long. :)

Karen Edmisten said...

We try, Tabatha, right? We try.

Karen Edmisten said...

Denise, thank you, and yes, we will all need a specific kind of creativity to deal with govt. changes.

Karen Edmisten said...

Molly, thanks, and ah, if you only knew how often I get paralyzed and how often the overthinking leads to ... nothing. :) Wishing you a wonderful year too.

elli said...

Joan of Arc! Again, a really fitting match for me, and for this year 😊

Kortney Garrison said...

Loved hearing about all your words and the poem that came out of the overthinking! Hope is my word this year...and I did feel a bit of resistance to it even though I'm an upholder, not a questioner. ;)

Marcie Flinchum Atkins said...

I'm so sorry about the loss of both parents. That's a LOT to deal with. I love your overthinking about your word of the year. I'm an upholder. When I took that quiz several years ago, I was like "of course, that makes sense."

Rose Cappelli said...

Wishing you a year of creating to help you heal, Karen. I think spending time deeply thinking (not necessarily overthinking) helps the word stick. And you've done that. Good luck!

Karen Edmisten said...

elli, Joan of Arc! ❤️

Karen Edmisten said...

Kortney, as an upholder, I imagine you will stick to Hope no matter what. ;) It's lovely to hear from you!

Karen Edmisten said...

Marcie, thank you so much. I'm not surprised you're an upholder — that makes so much sense! It's amazing how on-target Rubin's tendencies are.

Karen Edmisten said...

Thank you so much, Rose. You're right that thinking it through helps to cement it!

Carol Varsalona said...

Loss is difficult to bear, Karen. I am glad that you are in a creative mood. Poetry seems to smooth the soul with hope for the future. You got it.

Mary Lee said...

Here's to your year of creating, whether that comes with overthinking, impulsiveness, or escapism!

Michelle Kogan said...

I enjoyed your journey in meeting create, a full and promising word! And your dialogue with overthink too—looking forward to where these kernels lead you, Thanks Karen!