Thursday, May 14, 2009

Of saints, babies and anniversaries

Ten years ago today, I was in the hospital, having a miscarriage.

We named the baby James Matthias, after St. Matthias, whose feast day is today.

I began to pray that James would intercede for his father's faith and conversion.

Three months later, Atticus took his first tentative steps toward Catholicism.

Thank you, baby James.

Thank you, God, for the gift of intercessory prayer.

And thank you, God, and Atticus, for our many beautiful children, even if we can only see and hug and hold three of them. I know that one fine day we will all be together.

In the meantime, to my big family in heaven: pray for us!


Diane said...

Oh Karen, so sweet and utterly amazing this reflection is. I'm sending a big warm hug to my beautiful friend {{{KareBear}}} as she remembers the precious babies she never got to hold. Someday.

Love you!

sarah said...

Dear Karen, many blessings to you on the anniversary of James.

Margaret in Minnesota said...

Oh Karen, this post is as beautiful as it is bittersweet. It is also a reminder to me that I have four neglected intercessors...

...but tomorrow is a new day.

With blessings & love,

Your friend in all things beautiful & bittersweet

Sue said...

Oh, that is so beautiful. Our fifth baby was due at the end of April, and thanks to my Catholic friends I have come to think of the fact that our little one is in heaven in a very different way. I no longer think of that little one as just being "with Jesus", but also praying for us. Thank you for sharing those thoughts.

Jenny said...

What a beautiful post. Thank you for reminding me that I do have 2 intercessors in Heaven. Our sweet Ben, who was with us for 7 years, and our dear Augustine, whom we shall meet when we are reunited as a family in Heaven.

Anonymous said...

Please pray for me. M name is CHristine and I lost my little baby Jack at 6 weeks and two days. I am in soo much pain. My husband thinks my grief is dwelling and now I feel like I'm all alone. I know the thought of your babies in heaven gives you peace but it makes me angry and soo sad there are not words. Any kind words would get me through this long night of loneliness and grief. God bless you,

Karen E. said...

Dear Christine, I am so terribly sorry for your loss. Your anger and grief are understandable ... there is nothing like the loss of a child -- is there a priest you can talk to? A counselor? Talking through it, while you pray as well, can be so helpful. Also, try to remember that men and women often grieve differently. A priest or counselor can be helpful there, too, with both you and your husband.

My prayers for you, and my deepest sympathy -- I'm so sorry!